Living life like an ocean...

I haven't updated my blog in weeks. This isn't because I didn't have anything to say. This is because I didn't have anything meaningful to say.

Don't be led to believe that the fact that I'm doing this today means that something earth-shattering is going to be said. Keep your expectations low. That way you won't be disappointed in what is going to follow...

I'm feeling rather nostalgic. There is this song, these lyrics, which I can't seem to get out of my head. They keep bubbling to the surface. It's not a song I know well. In fact, I had to google the lyrics in order to find out who wrote it.

It goes like this:

Looking back at the beginning of this
And how life was
Just you and me loving all of our friends
Living life like an ocean
But now the currents slowly pulling me down
It's getting harder to breathe
It won't be too long and I'll be going under
Can you save me from this?

Cause it's not my time I'm not going
There's a fear in me it's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
Ooohh but I won't go

I look ahead to all the plans that we made
And the dreams that we had
I'm in a world that tries to take them away
Oh but I'm taking them back
Cause all of this time I've been just too blind to understand
What you matter to me
My friend this life we live it's not what we have
It's what we believe in

Cause it's not my time I'm not going
There's a fear in me but it's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
But it's not my time I'm not going
There's a will in me and now I know that
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
Ooohh but I won't go
I won't go

There might be more than you believe
(There might be more than you believe)
There might be more than you can see

But it's not my time I'm not going
There's a fear in me it's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
But it's not my time I'm not going
There's a will in me and now it's gonna show
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
Ooohh

There might be more than you believe
(There might be more than you believe)
There might be more than you can see

But I won't go
No I won't go down
Yeah

Mmm, so what does this all mean? I'll let you know when I figure it out. What I do know, but do not understand, is that I know less now than I did when I was 20. Strange, but true.